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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

LOVE STORY....

Like any other SIMPLE "LOVE STORY"..today i am going to present you A VERY NORMAL LOVE STORY...a story that was never destined to have a BEGINNING..and always clear to come to an END..with leaving behind all the memories that will always break a heart each day every day...over n over again...FOREVER....

Before i start my story..i want to give you all the link of the song of my LIFE..a song i WAS holding on to for the last 13 years of my life.....hope it will work as a good Background score..

Starring My very own Salt & Pepper shaker..n my CRAZY MIND...here goes the Story...of LOVE....

I'm lost and confused,miss-treated and miss-used,Raped and abused,Unloved and refused.I was always being excused,I started doing drugs,Dating some thugs.I was being a tease,and getting pleased.I love that life..now I’m stuck,in this rock.restrained from the one I love.screaming inside my mind,even though everyone thinks I’m fine.crying myself to sleep every night,wishing the next day SOMEONE might be in sight.I was dropped in this town,to never be found.I was beaten...I was raped...I was unloved...I was refused...and most of all I was confused

I didn’t know what trust was, before we met.I didn’t know I could feel like this, before we met.I find myself missing the times we never had before we met.I don t know how I ever lived without knowing you.And I’m happy I do. I’m happy I have you.

Maybe I am just a fool for you..Maybe you're no angel too..But all that talk is cheap..When I'm alone with you...If love is blind..I'll find my way with you Cause I can't see myself..Not in love with you..If love is blind...I'll find my way with you....

You make me feel like an important person..that I know I'm not.I'm not worthy of your attention and your kindness.I don't even deserve the every breath that I'm given..while I'm in your arms.When you look at me and tell me that you love me, I can't help but cry.I'm not worthy of your love or of anything else that you're willing to give me.

Hold my hand and I'm yours,And your heart will stay close to mine,For I know the sun must rise with the dawn,And at night the stars must shine.....

Let tonight be the night that I hold you,who knows what tomorrow may bring?Let tonight be the night that I shower my love on you and change your low, gloomy winter mood to spring...

There was a time when I almost left you behind.I was high on the totem pole and didn't think to go back for you.I remembered you, I looked for you, and came back with you.And now you are ahead of me.Long ago, when our world was new, I'd beg to you-"Please, oh please don't leave me--"and when you returned, I wasn't alone,I had you to be by me.Don't leave me behind..Don't let me fall back;Where the trees are tall and the road is black.I beg of you, come back for me,It feels so cold and i can hardly see.Come back,come back for me.

Forget his name, forget his face..Forget his kiss, his warm embrace..Forget the love that you once knew..Remember he has someone new..Forget him as they play your song..Remember how you cried all night long..Forget how close you two once were..Remember he has chosen her..Forget you memorized his walk..Forget the way he used to talk..Forget the things he used to say..Remember he has gone away..Forget his laugh,..forget his grin..Forget the dimples on his chin..Forget the way he held you tight..Remember he's with her tonight..Forget the time that went so fast..Forget the love that moved, it's past..Forget he said he'd leave you never..Remember that he's gone forever..Forget him!!

I dont wish you to come back to me anymore..i know you never will..but still there are something my broken heart want to tell you..Some Day You’ll Cry For Me…Like I Cried For You, Some Day You’ll Miss Me…Like I Missed You, Some Day You’ll Need Me…Like I Needed You, Some Day You’ll Love Me…But I Won’t Love You.....................

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

That's Who YOU are...


"The history of all times, and of today especially, teaches that ... women will be forgotten if they forget to think about themselves." - LOUISE OTTO

From the moment we came to this world..we start living our life for others..for our Parents..for our siblings..for our Friends..for our Loved one..For our Life partner or for our Children..with every changing step of our life..we transform our self..from a Daughter to a Wife to a Mother and many other characters in between..but how far do we go to be a WOMEN?..just an individual..a distinct human being...i guess we always forget to realize who we are while making everyone happy in their own way ahead..

Anyways..Today its March 8,2012..its WOMEN'S DAY..last night when i wished some of my Girl friends for the occasion "Everyday, remind yourself that YOU are the best!"..suddenly a male friend put a comment like this "Tough to live that lie everyday... rather not eh?? ;)"...i felt it was FUNNY..."WHY"??..cos that's what they think n make them-self happy..LOL..."i just WONDER how tough+funny it is for u guys to live with this wrong assumption..eh?? :-P.." that's what my ans was....

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY to every single Women in this whole wild world...

Take Care
Love
Stay Fabulous,
ShahnazM

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

My Gear List.....



"Cameras don't take pictures, photographers do. Cameras are just another artist's tool"

Just in-case anyone is interested to know about the gears im using currently..the list is given below...

Camera bodies and lenses:
NIKON D90
AF-S NIKKOR 18-105mm
AF NIKKOR 50mm
AF MICRO NIKKOR 60mm

Additional Light
Elinchrom fx400ri Kit YONGNUO YN565EX Speed light
Yongnuo Pro LED Video Light YN-160
LED-5010 VDO Light

Accessories
ML-L3 Wireless Remote Control
YOUGNUO RF-602/N Wireless Flash Trigger
Portable Flash Soft Diffuser (29.6 x 26.8cm)
NEEWER Circular 5-in-1 Collapsible Reflector (32-Inch/80CM Portable)
Digipod Tr-573
Square Perfect Premium "Studio In a Box" Light Tent(60-Inch)

Essential Software
Photoshop cs 8.0
Adobe Lightroom 3.5 & 4

Your list will inevitably be determined by your specific needs...If you’re a fashion or lifestyle photographer then your gear list will obviously be very different from a travel photographer or just somebody who likes to make the most of the opportunities that arise as you travel around....Anyways I hope there are some items on this list that will give you food for thought......

Stay Fabulous,
ShahnazM

I..Me & Myself



~.::..My Name is Shahnaz M, I am a hobbyist photographer looking for a place to belong and not be looked at like I don't fit the stereotype. I use photography to show the world from my point of view because i can't sing a song to live, I can't write music of feelings, I can't perform an expressive dance. But i can document life, feeling, and expression in a photograph..worth more then a thousand words..::..~  

Photography is my passion. I enjoy creating images. Creative, distinctive, and passionate is what I envision for my images. When I am shooting, all the troubles of the world goes away, I am truly living in the moment. This is my form of art; this is how I release stress. I consider myself to be a "memory keeper", of sorts (I would rather consider myself a “picture freak”). Pictures, to me, hold pieces of everyone’s past; they are something to be treasured.

My other hobbies and leisure activities include Reading books, Listening Music n Watching movies. During my teenage days i looooooved collecting Autographs and YES i still love collecting them. So far my much treasured Autograph was from one of my most favorite Indian Bengali filmmaker and Author SATYAJIT ROY..creator of my All time "HERO" Prodosh Chandra Mitra aka FELUDA.

Most of my hours when im not working means using computers in a lot of different ways..I also squeeze in a lot of time to spend with my family and friends. I am thankful to my FAMILY and to all the wonderful people that had helped me throughout my photographic journey. I am still learning and having a great time in this journey.


Stay Fabulous,
ShahnazM